Why faking it 'till you make it isn't enough

At 17 years old, my response was to adopt what I unconsciously believed to be a “masculine” trait: toughness. I worked hard to appear emotionally unfazed by anything, unreadable, and slightly angry. I was suppressing and hiding what I felt from everyone, including myself. The immediate and long-lasting result was a constant feeling of distance from other people and a pervasive loneliness.